我不配 - Jay Chou

這街上太擁擠

太多人有秘密

玻璃上有霧氣

在被隱藏起過去

妳臉上的情緒

在還原那場雨

這巷弄太過彎曲

走不回故事裡

這日子不再錄

又斑駁了幾句

剩下搬空回憶的

我在大房子裡

電影院的座椅

隔遙遠的距離

感情沒有對手戲

妳跟自己下棋

*還來不及仔仔細細寫下妳的關於

描述我如何愛妳

妳卻微笑的離我而去

**這感覺已經不對

我努力在俛回

一些些應該體貼的感覺我沒給

妳嘟嘴許的願望很卑微在妥協

是我忽略妳不過要人陪

Oh 這感覺已經不對

我最後才了解

一頁頁不忍翻閱的情結妳好累

妳莫背為我掉過幾次淚多憔悴

而我心碎妳受罪 妳的美

我不配**

My Way - 张敬轩

一直在酝酿

一直在盼望

爸爸和妈妈

唯一的理想

二月第一天

一九八一年

我第一次对他们眨了眨眼

等待快点过去多少个明天

希望这个宝贝快快长大一点一点

身体要健康所有的事情都如所愿

baby长大以后就是小轩

*I will find my way

I want a different way

I'll change the wind and rain

There'll be a brand new day

小时候受伤有人心痛失落有人安慰

现在遇到困难自己就要学会面对

I will find my way

I want a different way

Nothing will stop me now

No matter what they say

困难要用我的坚强和努力勇敢面对

现在用心去追感觉就对

I'll find my way

I will find my way

I find my way

一直就这样

找我的方向

不理会别人

奇怪的眼光

直到有一天

我忽然发现

梦想已经在实现

等待快点过去多少个明天

看着自己已经慢慢长大一点一点

我的生活应该让我自己学会掌握

想信自己

不怕风雨再多

Sad-a-day (Saturday)

It's a bright and lazy Saturday afternoon,
and I'm the only one typing away in my office
while most people are sleeping, shopping or chatting away.

While this is my first Saturday spent working in office and I doubt it will be the last,
I pretty much enjoy being left alone with the huge office to myself and
doing my work slowly and independently.
It's quite a different feeling, and even my work doesn't look so scary anymore.

At the end of a day,
it's a matter of perspective. =)
Saturdays with work don't have to be 'Sad-a-days'...

Most importantly, it is to love what you are doing,
because it takes the difficulties out of your work.

Back to work, until I take a breather later.

Palette of colours

Someone overturned the palette again,
and the different hues splashed all over
like a piece of fine art
All intermixed without thought
but all pieced as one.

My painter must have been trying to remind me
how beautiful life can be =)

Only against a dark background,
do vibrant colours stand out.
Only upon having gone through struggles and throes
do people truly live.

Having a life is certainly different from living a life.

Read something meaningful today:

Life is short,

Break the rules,

Forgive quickly,

Love truly,

Laugh uncontrollably,

And never regret anything that made you smile.

I hope I get to see these azure skies everyday. =)

Found this poem and nice picture to go along with it...

Cuore Pesante

Pressed and sunken
Every trudge leaves a trace of consanguinity
Implacably dragged across
Grainy dunes
Every eschar burnt by grit.

Dredged tirelessly from hell.

I fantasmi appaiono di notte.

Cuore Pesante.

-Anonymous

Running

This morning, I dragged my lazy butt out of my bed and forced myself to wake up with the big beautiful sun shining, casting light into my room.

Because I decided to go running on a lovely Sunday morning.

My mum was pretty surprised cos she knows I only start running when it's a new phase of my life. But I'm sure she's glad I'm doing something positive and waking up early. I think my body has gotten used to waking up at unearthly hours on weekends.

And I woke up in cold sweat last night at 4.55am as I had a nightmare that sent me sitting up and looking around the room.

While I wasn't like running 3 or 4 km, I was making small baby footsteps!

of course, this time,
I ran towards the sun, because I always want to run towards the sunlight. =)

Had a fantastic time catching up with my friends during the weekend, catching up on old times and sipping coffee and updating each other on our lives.
And of course, memories of how simple uni life was then... orientation camps... celebrating each others' birthdays and random chalets...guitar and jazz dance classes on weekdays and weekends, coffee sessions at fong seng, munchy monkey pasta and ice cream...
what beautiful memories...

and at the end of the day, its being able to chat with these friends despite not catching up for so long that makes the friendships precious... =)
thank you all my dearest friends =) to each and everyone of you...

Boracay Island

Breathtaking view, isn't it? Looks like a great way to spend the holidays, on the beach, suntanning (though honestly, i doubt i need any more...), sipping a cold beer.. chilling out and forgetting about... work!


And let the tranquility clear waters take you away... =)
Just the thought makes me smile!
Now, its time to save up my vitamin M and make this a reality...

Crush - David Archuleta

I hung up the phone tonight,

Something happened for the first time,

Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush,

Cause the possibility that

You would ever feel the same away about me,

It’s just too much, just too much

*Why do I keep running from the truth,

All I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized,

And I just got to know

#Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,

All that we can be, where this thing can go,

Am I crazy or falling in love,

Is it real or just another crush

Do you catch a breath, when I look at you,

Are you holding back, like the way I do,

Cause I’m tryin’, tryin’ to walk away

But I know this crush aint’ goin’ away,

goin’ away#

Has it ever crossed your mind when we’re hangin’,

Spending time girl,

Are we just friends, is there more, is there more,

See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take,

Cause I believe that we can make this into

Something that will last,

Last forever, forever

#Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,
All that we can be, where this thing can go,
Am I crazy or falling in love,
Is it real or just another crush

Do you catch a breath, when I look at you,
Are you holding back, like the way I do,
Cause I’m tryin’, tryin’ to walk away
But I know this crush aint’ goin’ away,
goin’ away#

Bottoms Up

Chilled out at IndoChine @Wisma yesterday after work with Shiang...
Had a few glasses to unwind, coupled with rusty jokes and hilarious jabs at each other...

Quote of the night:
"this guy friend of mine... is a guy..."
how enlightening... haha...

But you really get different perspectives talking to different people...
And having worked for a couple of months, people do change, I guess.
The conversation topics seem to slide away from mugging in NUS to work, money, love etc...
At least 40 more years of working? Sad but true.

But the chill out session was good... lets have more of such sessions k! =)

The petals slowly unfold

presenting a whole new world

The blooming of the rose

A scent that tingles the nose. =)

It never pours but rains here

This is like home, where the soft cushions are comfortable and the people there are familiar and warm.

'Rain boasts a mod bar counter, 8 individual "living room seatings",

2 private rooms and a pool table for that personal choice in karaoke enjoyment.

Each couch and sofa setting in the main hall seats up to 8 persons comfortably and

the see-through drapes afford the illusion of privacy for those embarrassed to sing and

face a crowd. Each table has its own flat touch screen karaoke system where patrons

may select their songs and songs are allocated in a round robin manner with two songs

per table per round. When it comes to your table's turn, the waitresses will speedily

pass you the microphones from the previous table.

If you are a lone crooner, the bar counter offers a wonderful place to hang out, sing and drink. '

Dark portentous skies, strewn with thunderous clouds
Ferociously threatening to break under the burden of the weight
Inclement weather, tempestuous storms brewing
Uncontainable and unrestrained,
Gushing out were those pearls I dreamt about.

Maybe at the end of the day, these will just be fluffy stuff drifting by.

Soaked
in the blissful blessing of showers
In the twinkling of an eye
The glistening pearls cascading upon on us
Sprinkling
Of a tap left unturned
Sparkled
Under the light cast by the street lamps
Darkness, when souls rest
Yet so incandescent when spirits play

The carousel spins, twirls, revolves
While the little apparition perches herself on the pavement
and stares with her chin on her palms

The twirls the dancer makes as
she throws herself backwards
The tap of her dainty pretty feet
Smoothing out the syncopation

Until the apparition lifts herself to her feet and lands quite promptly on the ground and pretends a little pousette and tips her toes and does a swift pirouette –
all in a swift minute.

And with a thud,
She lays on the tarmac
Flat out.

It is a trick of the mind.
The eyes do not see
The ears do not hear
The skin does not feel.

When does the rain cease?