YAY! I am so proud of myself!
so proud of myself! so proud of myself! =)

For the first time in my NUS history,
I finished a 12 page essay 10 hours before its due!
that is to say, I can sleep in peace tonight, not staying up to burn midnight oil for that sociology paper!

the question was 'state violence, a method of governance, can descend into state terrorism'


and last nite, i stayed up til 6am to prepare but no ideas came... and so even in my sleep, ideas started to jumble and this afternoon i sat down from 3pm and ended at 11pm to finish! =) Its weird how i can complete an essay within 6 hours in a hurry on the morning the paper its due, but if i prepare in advance, i cant get any ideas down and i spend like close to a week on one paper.

And this time, I actually started way early by a week!

Okay, maybe no big deal, but i am the biggest procrastinator on earth
so this is one big achievement =)
heh. *pinches my own cheeks cos im proud of my un~laziness*

but anyway,
i still cant sleep tonight cos ive got 4 more projects to rush
8 hours of staring into computer screen, and 8 more to go!

okay, i sound over-enthu but im buried way underneath my work!!!!!

:(

i am this close to the conclusion and i can kiss this misery goodbye. --> at 1120pm jus now.

work is piling in on me,
dragging me along with its unkind, unrelenting and impatient speed.
can hardly see my feet with all the work piling and piling
in addition to the procrastinator in me,
its no wonder i can hardly breathe.
every semester becomes another similar struggle to balance my work instead of a strive to do well.
last semester before i leave for uk,
better make the best out of it...

one last try,
one last time.

the intoxication of the fumes
the melody of the ballads
the train of thoughts
the whizzing past of yellowed pages
the squeezing of the arteries

love,me.

for the couples out there who have a few tiffs here and there...

Sometimes - Gabrielle (sound track of spiderman)

Weve come too far we cant turn back
Have our good days, have our bad
When Im feeling blue
You say that Im hurting you

We try so hard not to fight
But sometimes we cross the line
And I wanna leave
But you
Wont let me

We have our highs and lows
Just like everybody else
Doesnt mean that we walk away
We work through our mistakes

Chorus: Sometimes I love you
Sometimes I dont
But I never ever
Never want to let you go

The roads not easy
But the feelings strong
Its the little things that keep me holding on


We’re both guilty of mistakes
Though you rarely take the blame
Are you coming through
Sometimes I hate you

But it’s not mistakes in life you make
It’s the good you do along the way
The dues you pay

We have our highs and lows
Something everybody knows
Doesn’t mean that we run away
We work through our mistakes

Chorus

Ohhh Of all the crazy things in life there’s pain
It’s you and me
We’ve come so far sometimes I can’t believe
That I wouldn’t change a thing
Chorus x 3

Do try this test at http://www.drawahouse.com/TakeTheTest/. Very interesting =)

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader.
You are a freedom lover and a strong person.
You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible.
You love excitement and create it wherever you go.
You are very tidy person.
There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends.

Your life is always full of changes.
You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible.
You love excitement and create it wherever you go.
You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love.
It is also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt.
You don't think much about yourself.

Click here to view my house

unconditional love

Know you not the meaning of silence
Is weariness too strong a word for you? Of course
Not, you answer, I want your presence!
But no, you just don't know my cause.

Words spoken from the mouth are only but such
Frivolity and rash impulsivity; maybe immature youth as well
For that moment I did care, yes, as you, just as much
But for now, a far cry from the past, I am not sure as hell.

Sight of you overturned the curves of my thick lips,
Just not now, it's all for your good, for now.
Centre of your universe, my wish is naught.
Then I did, but the only thing constant is change and things always sour.

Your love, care, concern and - are weighing me down -
Time, all deserving better, for empty-handed am I.
Shoved me closer to the edge, overwrought all around.
For simply, look in my eyes, the balance has overtilted to one side
My side of course, but my hand reached out once but got tired of holding.

Stepped into this ditch and another leg joined
Perhaps all the ditsy times of love and happiness in song and dance
Were only but flitting illusions of temporal impermanence.
Oh yes, my love is unconditional,
Just not now.

- Anonymous