i bought my first Subway today.
this time, without you.
its not the one foot long sandwich we always shared
in the coldness of the winter in australia

i remembered us
sharing dreamy and sleepy evenings by looking at passers-by at the corner of the shop in town after shopping,
joking happily about things we saw while eating,
buying one foot long sandwiches very excitedly at hawken drive after missing breakfast and before watching 'the beautiful mind'
choosing indecisively the type of sandwiches we want,
sharing lovingly in the cold our sandwiches - each of us to have a half each so that we share everything together and never get separated,
toasting hungrily the sandwiches in the microwave in the common room next to ur room
trying daringly almost every flavour to save money and also choosing our most favourite ones that would make u so happy.
i was never one to like bread but with u, i just grew to like eating sandwiches together with you.


yes i remember all that.
it was as if in that instant that i was purchasing Subway at raffles place just now,
i could feel your warm presence
right beside mine
i was transformed back to australia
back to the three weeks
where we shared a love we tried to upkeep despite all obstacles we faced
the best times of my life those three weeks
cos of the limitations of time
cos we knew i had to go
cos we cherished every single moment together
cos our love was so strong.


but now
im ordering just a six inch sandwich
we're no longer sharing a one foot Subway anymore
perhaps, symbolic of our love now.


but the really nice warm and fuzzy heart warming feeling
came to me when i remembered all the beautiful times we shared in aussie
it really made me smile from the heart
when i remember the strong love we shared
to support and hold thru the two and a half years we have gone through


the love we shared made me feel that i never realise i could have loved and cared for someone so much.
that i've truly lived.


thank you very much : )