everything ok?

After all the pain I've been put thru,
This is like a fresh new shower of bless
I know it's not gonna last long
I know we wont be together for long

And I know everything has changed
But I still hope
That I am still
Your ben nu hai.
Am I still?

Words may hurt
But sometimes what is not said but felt
Is worst.

I cant tell myself to believe that it wont happen again
just dont tear me apart again.
I can walk away from it all
but you will never be able to see my tears at all.
Maybe it's because u are too stoned to see it
Or maybe,
just maybe
I wont ever let u see another teardrop of mine

Maybe this way
this makes our leaving easier
Easier for you
cos you wont see how hard it is for me
how heartbreaking

and for me?
my heart will cry.