dont speak.
my eyes have gone dry from tears;
its a desert
a deserted desert
where u no longer are interested.

no matter how hard u try,
ur life is too complicated and u are just not in the mood
no matter how hard i try,
i am just a burden to u consciously or not,
and i just am like
something else to you.

ben nu hai?
lulu? dear?
whats all that when u dont need me anymore to make ur life worse off?

dont tell me
dont speak dont say its cos u cannot offer me anything
u know i dont need u to offer me anything
u just want to delve into all this
and be alone
feel that ur life is crashing
feel that nothing matters
not even me,
who is worth just a few dots
...

just that.
there's no use telling u
u are neglecting my feelings
it just gives u more stress
so here i will
wilt and peel
until the day u think u have had enough of me
and u think that u worry u will no longer love me
or i need things that u cant provide

then that is the day
everything just ends

right now,
i am just ur chesspiece
helpless
vulnerable
every single thing is in ur control
and
you are tearing apart my heart.

cos u never spare a thought for me.