An overturned grin

Had an absolute rubbish day today... Was on the verge of tears...
I promised myself I'd stay in control... And that I'd stay resilient against all odds...

But sometimes the safety net breaks... and all hell breaks loose...

And as I braved myself for what's coming ahead...
I wonder if I'm holding on to prove myself wrong...
... or if i even have anything to stay for...

It brings me back to square one... where daunting choices overwhelm me...

I hate to choose... don't make me choose...
Taureans love their comfort zones...
And absolutely abhor changes...
or so I believe.

The light at the end of the tunnel, is that of an oncoming train?

Highly possibly, since I can't see anyway out...
I need a breather but ironically I can't...

Nasty days... they seem to outlast me..
And my solace is listening to music...
Inspiring ones, at least like the one below..





These Days - Jennifer Paige / Bardot

Some days
I couldnt get up
Couldnt get down
Im bored of everything

Somehow a little black cloud would rain over me
Someone was making me mad
Good turned bad
And Id lose everything
To get you back
Just to get you back but...

*Chorus

These days
The worlds alright
The sun shines bright
Im kicking out the dreams
These days
I dont think twice
I walk on ice
Im positively somewhere

These days go on
Long after youve gone
These days go on
Long after youve gone
These days go on and on...

Im out of the fire and into the swimming pool
Sometimes Id drown my tears
But the same old fears come back

Someones been making me ill
I bet youre still
A 2,3,4 letter word
Yes, you heard
The pretty little birds fly home, cause...

*Chorus
These days
The sun kicks in
The good guys win
Im illegal in the back seat
These days
Im safe and sound
Not dragged down
You wanna know the reason?

These days go on
Long after youve gone
These days go on
Long after youve gone
These days go on and on...

**
Thank you for not being here
I feel better when youre not
Sleeping in my head
Tossing and turning
And messing up the sheets
The love we made was incomplete

Like the shoes on your feet
Same stuff Ive heard before
That philosophy starting to bore me now
Now you wont have to smile and ignore me

*Chorus
These days
The karmas right
The sun shines bright
Im kicking out the bad dreams
These days
I dont think twice
I walk on light
Im positively somewhere