havent updated in ages... felt that too many things happened... its been a roller coaster ride.. sometimes very depressing cos of work, sometimes its a brand new exhilarating high due to work achievements... and sometimes, i see no point in blogging cos there's too much of a long story and unless you are me, noone can understand.. and i look at myself in photos, i look so crimply (crumpled and wrinkly) and so haggard :( Maybe its the lack of sleep and its not a long lasting effect :( 2 weeks since i last updated... so many things just happened... time crawled past but things escalated... pretty burnt out, dont know what to feel anymore... mixed feelings, am i doing the right thing by quitting? its the job i have wanted my life... and maybe even more.. but im not so sure afterall its a moral dilemma... yes, one of my ramblings again... its close to end of june... need i say more.. its closer to start of school... the headache of choosing major is here again... when u think or wish u have everything planned, it just turns out otherwise... im finding accomplishment and satisfaction in this job, thats why its so hard to let go.. a thousand thoughts flitting past my mind now, running incessantly... not stopping to let me breathe... i think i need a hug :(