went to my good friend's father's wake today
the mood was sombre, painful and mourning
stepping into singapore casket brought waves of fresh memories

my friend was badly shaken
a sudden death - who would have thought of it?
that perhaps ur goodbye to ur loved one would be the last?

attended the service with hymns and prayers said
im not a christian but i felt so much for them

when we were allowed to walk around the coffin and pay respects to her dad
part of me was not ready yet

u know how painful it still is?

i allowed my eyes to look inside
i couldnt bear to look at the face
so i saw her father's hands clasped tightly together
it was enough of a sight

i hugged my friend really tight
this kind of pain is needless, painful and agonizing

i teared along with her

but i wiped it away silently

i pray for u, my dear friend.